Saturday, 9 September
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Sunday, 18 October 2009, 11:14:00
Jumat, 16 Oktober 2009.Ada gempa di Jakarta dsk, ahey! Pusatnya katanya di Ujung Kulon, makanya pada berasa. Termasuk gw. Hari itu jam 4an gw baru aja pulang, terus ayah dan abang pada pergi ke rumah sakit ga lama setelah gw pulang. Sendiri lagi di rumah, entah yang keberapa kalinya. Makanya gw mulai paranoid lagi. Takut ada hantu lah, dst dst.
Dan ternyata gak lama kemudian gw ngerasa kursi gw kok bergetar, takutnya gw lagi pusing atau apa, tapi kok malah berlanjut. Udah gitu kaca gede di sebelah gw ikut bergetar, pintu kamar goyang-goyang mengkriyet, bikin gw tambah ngeri aja. Pusing, langsung aja gw tulis di status Y!M dengan hebohnya 'ANAK-ANAK JAKARTA, BARUSAN ADA YANG NGERASA GEMPA GAK?' dan di Plurk juga. Heboh emang, padahal gempanya cuma beberapa detik doang...
Pas gempa yang sebelumnya itu, yang gw lagi tidur trus berasa kasur gw digoyang-goyangin sama setan (kayak scene di Rumah Pondok Indah gitu deeeeh) , gw gak seheboh ini. Secara gw belom pernah ngerasain gempa, dan langsung excited-biasa-biasa aja. Kenapa yang sekarang gw justru heboh..
1. Gw di rumah sendiri. Sempet mikir, gimana kalo gempanya gede, gw ketiban rak, sementara ayah dan abang kedua gw lagi asik di jalan, ibu dan abang pertama gw ngantor dan di sana banyak orang, lalu pas pulang mereka menemukan anak bungsu mereka terkapar tak berdaya di bawah reruntuhan rak. Kripi.
2. Hitung mundur ya. Beberapa jam yang lalu sebelum gempa itu terjadi, kira-kira jam 12-1an, gw dan Fidyah lagi ngomongin sesuatu yang krusial dan fragile, haha. Tentang KeTuhanan, dan itu ngebuat gw somewhat serem pas lagi ngomonginnya. Soal bukti-bukti kalo Tuhan itu ada yadda yadda bla bla. Pas gempa terjadi, gw langsung sms Fidyah, dan dia langsung bales 'GOD - HE TRIED TO CONVINCE US, oh'. Jadi serem lagi.
3. Sehari sebelum gempa itu terjadi, tepatnya pas malem gw mau tidur, gw ngebuat 'surat' untuk Tuhan, yang rencananya mau gw post di blog ini. Yaaa, sebenernya sih lebih ke masalah gw, tapi ada selipan-selipan 'Are You really exist to listen to me?' 'I know You can't feel what I feel, cause You are a God and no one would leave You' soal masalah gw yang sering banget ditinggalin orang-orang. Padahal maksud gw cuma mau curhat sama Tuhan doang.
4. Tanggal 8 Oktober 2009, 8 hari sebelum gempa itu terjadi, perasaan gw bener-bener gak enak. Sampe gw tulis di Twitter dan Plurk. Bukan, bukan karena perasaan sering ditinggalin di rumah sendirian dan banyak spirit force yang menghantui gw. Tapi lebih ke, err, pokoknya bukan ke spirit force deh. Like something worst will be happened. Emang waktu itu gw lagi sendiri, makanya gw takut banget, sampe muka gw pucet. Meski padahal, gempa itu ga worst juga..
5. Gw takut mati. Atau, kalau diperhalus, gw belum siap mati dan gak mau mati sia-sia di bawah reruntuhan gempa. End of discussion, hahaha.
Lalu gw semakin paranoid setelah itu. Gw sholat aja sampe bergetar, kalo yang itu sih karena gw ngerasa ada yang ngawasin gw dari belakang, beda lagi, wakakak. Apalagi banyak kan isu-isu kiamat gitu. Indonesia bakalan sering diguncang, dan gw pernah lihat di tayangan tipi, ada anak indigo (apa jangan-jangan gw anak indigo? LOL) yang ngeiyain itu dan bilang 'Jakarta bakalan goyang'. Rasanya pengen pindah ke Kalimantan, aman tenan di sana.
Kalo kata pacarnya abang gw yang mendapatkan info dari Mama Lauren, nanti pas kiamat itu gak semuanya bakalan hancur. Maksudnya tuh, dengan adanya bencana-bencana alam ke sananya, manusia bakalan musnah sedikit-sedikit, dan membukit deh. Hahaha, serem abis. Tapi masa katanya, 2014 bakal ada anak Indonesia yang berprestasi dan jadi pemuda yang sangat berpengaruh di dunia. Lho? Lalu ada yang bilang, pas 2012 tuh gak semua permukaan bumi musnah, dan cuma 40%nya yang bertahan, kemungkinan besar sisanya tuh Eropa yang musnah.
Akankah Indonesia, dan gw, bertahan?
Normal kan ya ini, semua orang juga takut sama kematian. Duh, duh, gw mau mati tenang aja deh. Mati sakit kek, jangan gara-gara bencana. Naudzubillah. Sampe kemaren si Yesa nyuruh gw buat ngapus ingatan gw aja kayak di Eternal Sunshine. Gak kebayang kalo gw ngomong sama dokternya dan bilang 'Dok, hapus ingatan saya tentang gempa dong'. Dan gw makin takut, kalo aja Tuhan udah bener-bener murka, bumi disentil aja, kiamat dehh.
Fregs says gue cuman mikirDari plurk, hoahahaha. Miris..
Fregs says " i dont want to taste doomsday today, I HAVENT READ COLUMBINE BOOK"
Fregs says ^ gak jg sih
njmllhsbtr "I dont want to taste doomsday today, Mikan haven't sent me Humbug"
Fregs says ^ WKAKAKAK KASIAN ABIS
Wrath— says ..... :|
Labels: daily, networld, realworld
Part 2
Friday, 7 August 2009, 16:03:00
Baru niat posting chat Omegle yang di entri sebelumnya sekarang ini. Abis lagi bosen sih, dan komputer lemot banget.Seperti yang sudah gw janjikan, gw bakal ngepost tentang 'kenapa' gw begitu hedon pas malam tanggal 11 Juli itu. Abisnya setiap kali gw chat di Omegle, dapetnya yang boring kalau enggak yang bener-bener aneh. Such as "asl pls" dan yang langsung dc kalo tau gw dari Indonesia, terus juga yang pertama kali IM langsung nulis "are you horny?" "got a cam?" "cyber?". Padahal gw bercita-cita punya kenalan bule atau gimana gitu, tapi akhirnya jadi sucks abis.
Hari itu berbeda (tsah), kenapa? Well, gw yang cukup pasif kalo chat di Omegle (gak di Omegle juga sih, biasanya gw hanya menjawab kalau ditanya dan hanya bertanya jika ingin basa-basi karena chatnya hambar) nggak ngira bakal langsung 'dimunculin' oleh statement phreaky orang yang seperti biasa, dari antah berantah.
Here it was..
Stranger: what now, huh?
Stranger: what now?!
You: I DON'T KNOW!
Stranger: thank you!
Stranger: an honest answer for once!
You: what answer did you get before it?
Stranger: well, I'm not just asking "what now"
Stranger: I asked someone "So what do you do for a living?"
Stranger: and s/he responded, "I'm a doctor."
Stranger: and then could absolutely NOT answer my follow-up questions
You: hmm yeah its obvious
You: then nice to get my answers, haha
Stranger: let's be honest with each other
Stranger: ok?
Stranger: this is the game:
Stranger: we will ask each other any question at all
Stranger: (that doesn't reveal explicitly who we are)
Stranger: and we have to answer them honestly
You: hmm okay
Stranger: so like, you won't know my name
Stranger: and I won't know yours
Stranger: and we can just be nice and anonymous
Stranger: but honest
Stranger: honesty is the key for this conversation to be interesting
You: but my english's too poor to make a sentence
Stranger: got it?
You: hmm ok
Stranger: don't worry about that. your sentences are fine
Stranger: ok. ask me any question. you go first.
You: will you go to heaven or hell?
Stranger: I think I'll go to heaven
Stranger: I might spend a few years in purgatory, but I'll end up in heaven
You: how about underworld?
You: well, next anyway
Stranger: ok my turn
Stranger: are you in love with anyone?
You: [censored]
Stranger: why??
You: [censored]
Stranger: oh wow
Stranger: well you know
Stranger: lots of complicated things have happened before
Stranger: I have actually
You: and how about you?
Stranger: heard of a wedding
Stranger: where THREE people married each other
Stranger: my sister and her husband attended this wedding
You: OH GREAT
You: that's weird
You: my turn
Stranger: ok
You: have you did anything that makes you feel being an extreme sinner in the world?
You: (oh my english sooo bad)
Stranger: (don't worry about it, I can understand you)
Stranger: ummm... I don't think I've done anything so bad
Stranger: I've had a lot of pre-marital sex
Stranger: but I don't think that that's so bad
Stranger: I occasionally do drugs
Stranger: but I don't think I'm going to hell for it
Stranger: does that make sense?
You: hmm i guess not
You: we're strangers anyway
Stranger: do you think I'm going to hell for these things?
You: much people did that kind of sin... as long as you go to church and pray for yourself, i think you're not gonna go to hell
Stranger: yeah, I'm not too worried about it
Stranger: ok my turn
Stranger: what are three things you want to do before you die?
You: first, PRAY
You: second, say LOVE to person that i had fell with
You: third, give my whole money to poor people
You: just kind of typical wishes, HAHAHA
Stranger: haha
Stranger: those are nice
Stranger: ok, ask me one last question, then I must go
You: do you believe in God?
Stranger: I do believe in God, but I think the way I believe in God is different than most people
You: why is that?
Stranger: well, I don't think of God as like a person, really
Stranger: more like a mysterious force
Stranger: at times both comforting and terrifying
You: yeah indeed
You: can you gimme more detail of that "mysterious force"?
Stranger: well
Stranger: it's hard to explain
Stranger: but
Stranger: I think that
Stranger: I don't think there's a God that's sitting around and judging my every action
Stranger: I think, rather, that there's a God within all of us
Stranger: that tries to guide us to do the right thing
You: isn't that an angel?
Stranger: maybe
You: it makes no difference with angel then
You: well but i agreed
Stranger: and I believe that this God within us
Stranger: has a strong connection to our surroundings
Stranger: and our peers
Stranger: and everything that we interact with
Stranger: not just in our actions, but in how our actions are perceived
You: and what is in your mind when you did your sins?
You: God's still watching you anyway
Stranger: but I don't think that God would consider the things I do to be so terrible
Stranger: for example, sex
Stranger: if I'm having normal consentual sex and nobody's feelings are getting hurt
Stranger: why should that upset God?
Stranger: I believe that we, human beings, are the ultimate expression of God
Stranger: and that we are only truly sinning if another human being expresses anger or sadness because of what we've done
You: oh great
You: i've never thinked about that way
You: so, you don't associate free sex as a sin?
Stranger: I think so long as nobody gets hurt, it isn't a sin
Stranger: but
Stranger: there ARE responsibilities
Stranger: you can't just go around having unprotected free sex with whomever you like
Stranger: what if someone who can't afford to get pregnant
Stranger: gets pregnant?
Stranger: then it's a sin because the resulting child will not have a good life
Stranger: or what if you have a disease and are spreading it to another person?
Stranger: then it's a sin because you are willingly infecting other people.
You: and how about stealing?
You: i mean, if you steal with nobody knows it
Stranger: like what?
You: it's still a sin then
You: when you steal something worth
You: but no one knows it (maybe because it smallness, who knows)
You: it's still a sin, isn't it? even no one gets hurt
Stranger: sure
Stranger: but it's a small sin
Stranger: stealing a piece of candy is a small sin
Stranger: stealing a car is a bigger sin
Stranger: killing a man is a huge sin
You: ah!
You: how about killing?
You: when you killed someone, you might try to hide the corpse
You: and no one knows it
Stranger: yes, but the person you've killed knows it
Stranger: and all the people that love the person you've killed
You: yeah?
Stranger: yeah
Stranger: see, if you killed me, for example
Stranger: and hid the body
Stranger: you might never get caught
Stranger: but
Stranger: you'll still be causing harm to all the people that love me
Stranger: my friends, my lover, my family
Stranger: you will be causing them pain
Stranger: even if you never get caught
Stranger: even if my body is never found
You: ah, too bad :|
Stranger: haha. why? do you have the urge to kill me?
You: hmm of course not, i have no right to kill someone :)
You: but i just consider free sex is a sin
Stranger: why?
You: firstly, in my religion, it's mentioned forbidden
You: ah, well, maybe just that
You: i'm scared of God's will
Stranger: to me
Stranger: the way I think of religion
Stranger: is this: over history, people have used religion to justify doing terrible, terrible things to one another
Stranger: the 9/11 terrorists, for example
Stranger: or the crusades
Stranger: and even hitler
You: emh
Stranger: and so to me
You: but how about a punishment in hell?
Stranger: well
Stranger: would you agree that the 9/11 terrorists did a terrible thing? would you agree that they have sinned?
You: yeah sure
Stranger: but you see
Stranger: THEY believed
Stranger: that they were going to HEAVEN for doing that!
Stranger: to me, religion is mostly a guide
Stranger: organized religion, that is
Stranger: I go to church, sure
Stranger: and I listen to and believe a lot of what they say
Stranger: particularly if they're talking about being good to one another
Stranger: and listening to the good things that God has to tell us
Stranger: but as far as sinning and bad things go
Stranger: my belief is that you're only as bad as the misery you cause
Stranger: and I try to not cause too much misery in my life
You: oooh...
You: oh my geez
Stranger: haha
You: it's great
You: really i've never met an idealist person like you
Stranger: well I'm glad we met
Stranger: :)
Stranger: you know
You: just don't know how to repulse your talk
You: but it's cool
Stranger: for a while, I didn't believe in God
Stranger: but I had a vision
You: ehm, so did i
Stranger: last year
You: tell me then
Stranger: it's a complicated story
Stranger: but
Stranger: I'll just put it like this:
Stranger: I became overwhelmed one night
Stranger: with gratitude
Stranger: for having met my lover
Stranger: I am going to marry this person -- we are engaged
Stranger: and one night, while thinking about this deeply, I started crying passionately
Stranger: I was overcome with a feeling of thanks
Stranger: thanks for having met such a wonderful person
Stranger: and really, there was no one to thank except God
You: and then?
Stranger: so I thanked God
Stranger: and I stopped crying
Stranger: I saw, I felt the presence of God in me, in my life
Stranger: and then a month later
Stranger: my grandmother died
Stranger: and I started going to church again
You: and what's the relation about it all?
Stranger: well
Stranger: my grandmother lived a great life
Stranger: and hundreds of people came to her funeral
Stranger: and they all told me such wonderful stories about her
Stranger: about how loving and kind and accepting she was
Stranger: for example, I have some gay cousins
Stranger: and one of them got married
You: wew
Stranger: and the older generation in my family -- my uncles and aunts -- none of them wanted to go to the wedding
Stranger: but my grandmother said, "But it's our son! And he's happy!"
Stranger: she went to the wedding
Stranger: and many of our aunts and some of uncles decided to go
Stranger: because of my grandmother
Stranger: to me, that's REAL love
Stranger: that's God's love
Stranger: it's a very accepting love
Stranger: and you know what? Everybody that I spoke with at the funeral
Stranger: had stories like this
Stranger: about my grandmother
You: oh great
You: i don't know what to type
Stranger: haha, it's ok
Stranger: to me, God is Love
Stranger: God is Acceptance
Stranger: God is Gratitude
Stranger: God is Peace
Stranger: because the only times I've ever truly felt God's presence
Stranger: were times when I have reflected strongly on love, acceptance, gratitude, and peace
You: oh and it's about your grandmother too
Stranger: well, she was deeply religious, too
Stranger: she prayed day and night
You: i just can type 'great', it's the only exact word
Stranger: haha, it's ok
You: and anyway
You: how about hell and heaven?
You: do you believe in those?
Stranger: I'm not sure if I do
Stranger: I hope there's a heaven
Stranger: I hope if there's a heaven, that my grandmother's there
Stranger: I do believe in some kind of afterlife
You: yeah, afterlife
Stranger: but I don't know that we get judged on the way up or on the way down
You: just skeptic about it
Stranger: I think we all just sort of become part of God
You: and what if hell and heaven don't exist?
Stranger: that doesn't bother me so much
Stranger: actually, if hell doesn't exist, then that makes me happy
Stranger: 'cause the idea of Hell is really scary
You: ah yeah indeed
You: and in heaven... there'll be a eternity
You: i just can't imagine how "eternity" looks like
Stranger: yeah. I don't know if it's something that can be seen
Stranger: have you ever had a dead loved one visit you?
You: nope
Stranger: my sisters and I have
Stranger: our grandmother visited us
You: ah, i can't remember it :|
You: in dream, isn't it?
You: i thought i have
Stranger: maybe in dream
Stranger: and maybe we were just thinking it
Stranger: but
You: and anyway, it's late 2:04 AM in here
Stranger: ahh, ok
Stranger: well, goodnight, Stranger
Stranger: I hope you find your way
You: just don't wanna talk about spirits :P
Stranger: haha, oh, ok
You: and i think i'll go to bed now
Stranger: goodnight!
You: it's really nice to chat with you
Stranger: you too
You: the very different one
You: ok, so we won't know each other right?
Stranger: I have no idea who you are
You: same here haha
You: i love your game
Stranger: haha
Stranger: good!
Stranger: me too
Stranger: ok, I should go, too
Stranger: bye bye!
You: bye!
You have disconnected.
Hm. Obvious, isn't it? Gw cukup sumringah ketika berhadapan dengan dia. Awalnya gw ikut ngerespons, ngeluarin argumen gw dan agak terhambat dengan kekakuan kata-kata yang akhirnya ga bisa gw keluarin, dan akhir-akhirnya gw beneran kaku. Kenapa? Gw bukannya menganggap apa yang 'stranger' itu bilang adalah suatu kenyataan yang harus disetujui. What he talked about was a reality, no doubt and I know. Tapi awalnya gw gak setuju dengan pemikiran dia yang 'diluar dugaan'.
Just in a simple case, gw belum pernah ketemu orang yang kayak dia. Dan even gw gak setuju sama pemikirannya, gw samasekali gak bisa nolak atau bahasa kerennya 'ngeles' apa yang dia omongin. Just like I said, it was a reality. Tentu aja minus sama urusan 'surga dan neraka' yang gak bakal kita ketahuin sampai kita mencapai kematian, beserta apa yang disebut sebagai 'reinkarnasi'. I do believe in those, but still skeptic. Terutama yang ngebuat gw terkesima dengan cara berpikir orang itu adalah statementnya mengenai 'free sex isn't a sin'.
Jadi, kita berbuat dosa bila hanya ada yang dirugikan? Dosa apa yang enggak mencakup hal itu?
Skeptic. But thanks anyway. You made my night, stranger.
Terberkatilah kami -.-
Saturday, 11 July 2009, 23:35:00
WARNING. Entri ini dapat dikatakan berisi konten berbahaya untuk anak-anak di bawah 13 tahun. Semoga tidak ada kesalahan dalam menyensor perkataannya.
Bosen. Giliran semua orang lagi asik ngejar post IH, entah ID, gw di sini duduk dengerin AM keras-keras, mandangin monitor yang sunyi, dan mulai meringkuk mikirin abang yang ga pulang-pulang. Semalem tidur jam setengah lima, capek parah, dan ga percaya otaknya bisa utuh pas bangun kalo tidur sebelum abang pulang. Kemaren udah janji juga sama Asril buat bikin blog ini.. so..
Hello world.
Try this. Gw dapet dari Sari, dan sempet bikin hedon kemaren-kemaren. Mulai bosen sejak yang nyapa ujungnya "asl pls". Teringat dengan MIRC, HAHAHAH.
Terus mulai lagi gara-gara Asril. Eh apa gw ya?
(Date: 11 July 2009, midnite)
panic_at_messenger: sril gw bete nih
kwit_granger: taliiithhh
kwit_granger: gue masih bosen
kwit_granger: dari tadi nyobain omegle dc mulu
kwit_granger: -.-
panic_at_messenger: :((
panic_at_messenger: terberkatilah kita para makhluk2 malam yang tengah dilanda bosan
panic_at_messenger: ngapain ya :|
kwit_granger: amin, Bapa!
kwit_granger: gue juga bosen nih makanya bete inet lelet
Dan Omeglepun adalah jawabannya--tetap!
Sebenernya sih Asril yang hedon. Gw udah bosen sama Omegle, jadi yah bingung juga mau ngapain.
kwit granger: 春哥纯爷们
kwit granger: chat gw =)) =))
Kalo itu sih langsung gw close, lol. Dan tak terasa memang makin membosankan ke depannya.
panic_at_messenger: enaknya alihin perhatian gimana ya
kwit_granger: sori mennnnn
kwit_granger: daritadi yang kita bahas
kwit_granger: itu juga
kwit_granger: gimana biar ga bosan, biar ngalihin perhatian
kwit_granger: ga nemu2 caranya =))
panic_at_messenger: iya yah =))=))
panic_at_messenger: mau rc gak? ;;)
kwit_granger: (ih, gue dapet partner chat hot dari puerto rico)
kwit_granger: rc apaan? role chat?
panic_at_messenger: (NORAK LO =)))
panic_at_messenger: iyah
panic_at_messenger: tapi as siapa coba =))
panic_at_messenger: masa as ats dan dada
panic_at_messenger: dana
panic_at_messenger: feel pedofil gw harus kambuh dong :|
kwit_granger: ih, kita maenin script laen aja
kwit_granger: jangan maen chara IH
panic_at_messenger: apa dong?
panic_at_messenger: ayo dong anak teater
kwit_granger: ih gini aja
kwit_granger: lo jadi cewek Hot dari puerto rico
kwit_granger: terus gue artis terkenal dari hollywood
panic_at_messenger: APAAN SIH =)) =))
kwit_granger: OMG partner chat gue beneran HOT lith
kwit_granger: nih ye, kan itu strangers
kwit_granger: jadi gue males bilang2 asl pls
kwit_granger: gue langsung tanya aja, do u like sex? =))
panic_at_messenger: ASTAGHFIRULLAH
panic_at_messenger: *SIRAM ASRIL PAKE AIR ZAMZAM*
kwit_granger: dia omongannya malah ngelantur
panic_at_messenger: SEREM LO SRIL
panic_at_messenger: ternyata selama ini...
panic_at_messenger: gw kan mikirnya yah
panic_at_messenger: tipe orang tuh ada banyak di omegle ini
kwit_granger: engga, ga ngomongin sex akhirnya
kwit_granger: tapi malah bahas spiderman
kwit_granger: =)) =))
panic_at_messenger: ada yang asik (ini gw bertahan) dengan omongan yang berbeda, ada yang ngebosenin (hi, asl pls, dan langsung dc pas gw bilang dari indonesia), dan ada yang cyber
panic_at_messenger: gw ga ngerti kok bisa ada sih yang berniat cyber2 gitu
panic_at_messenger: ternyata... di depan gw... =))
kwit_granger: cyber sex maksut lo?
panic_at_messenger: he eh
kwit_granger: ih, tadi beberapa orang tau gw dari indo pada bilang cool loh
kwit_granger: eh nyet gue kaga gitu ye, gimana bisa coba
panic_at_messenger: iya, tapi kebanyakan pada langsung dc pas tau gw indo
kwit_granger: tadi aja beneran iseng
panic_at_messenger: makanya gw bilang "from eastern part of the earth" =))
panic_at_messenger: wakakakakaka
panic_at_messenger: menyeramkan lo sril =))
kwit_granger: tapi beneran ngelantur bgt
panic_at_messenger: cie yang udah dapet mainan baru -.-
kwit_granger: awalnya kan biar ga bosen gue tanya yg ekstrim
kwit_granger: tapi ujung2nya maen spiderman
kwit_granger: ahhh, kita lihat saja nanti sayang
panic_at_messenger: kalo gt gw ngapain dong
kwit_granger: dl an nya masi 13 %
kwit_granger: tuh kan, apa gue bilang
kwit_granger: si puerto rico out
kwit_granger: cewek hot gue pergi
panic_at_messenger: =)) sedihnyaaa
panic_at_messenger: brb kamar mandi
kwit_granger: ih, lo gitu aja [sensor]
panic_at_messenger: ASTAGHFIRULLAH
panic_at_messenger: MENGERIKAN LO
panic_at_messenger: TUHAN TOLONG AMPUNI DOSA ASRIL
Akhirnya gw makin bete dan bosen, gw ikutlah Omegle lagi.
Dan akhirnya... JENG JENG JENG. Gw nemu seorang cowok, entah asalnya dari mana, he starts with a brilliant game. Nanti akan gw post setelah entri ini >3
kwit_granger: ih serem lith, dapet orang baru jijay bgt dateng2 kata2nya
panic_at_messenger: aduh sril gw beteeeee
panic_at_messenger: apa2?
panic_at_messenger: kopas dong =))
kwit_granger: Hi i m boy who can [sensor] its very nice u want it? If u a man go to [sensor] the door
kwit_granger: freak abis ye
panic_at_messenger: sana lo
panic_at_messenger: go [sensor] the door then
panic_at_messenger: =))
kwit_granger: siallllllll
panic_at_messenger: gw lagi chat sama cewek
panic_at_messenger: ga enak
panic_at_messenger: mana gw ngaku 15 taun, ternyata dia 13
kwit_granger: =))
kwit_granger: kasian banget
kwit_granger: eh tau gak tadi gue bales apa
kwit_granger: suck my [sensor]! terus gue dc
kwit_granger: =))
panic_at_messenger: =))=))
panic_at_messenger: lagi dong lagi
kwit_granger: apanya lagi lagi ?
kwit_granger: enak aja entar gue diperkosa =))
kwit_granger: ANJRIT
kwit_granger: Connecting to server...You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!A word of advice: "asl" is boring. Please find something more interesting to talk about!Stranger: hiStranger: asl?You: 19 m IndonesiaYou: u?Stranger: 19 f indonesia
kwit_granger: Stranger: asl?You: 19 m IndonesiaYou: u?Stranger: 19 f indonesia
kwit_granger: JODOH GITU
kwit_granger: terus dia langsung dc=))
panic_at_messenger: WAKAKAKAKAKA =))
panic_at_messenger: gw juga pernah dapet tuh indonesia
panic_at_messenger: langsung ngomong indonesia deh =))
panic_at_messenger: "oh, kamu anak mana?" lol =))
kwit_granger: dia langsung dc gitu
kwit_granger: kaget gue
panic_at_messenger: kalo gw jadi dia, gitu juga kok :D
kwit_granger: You: HELOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOYou: LALALALALAYou: CRAZY YOUUUUUU!
kwit_granger: KATA2 AWAL GUE
panic_at_messenger: sril, nanti jangan2 kita ketemu lagi =))
panic_at_messenger: trus dia jawab apa?
kwit_granger: bisa jadi =))
kwit_granger: kaga direspon
kwit_granger: gue coba yang lain ah pake gituan
kwit_granger: Stranger: CIAAATTTTStranger: YOU STRONG PECHOStranger: !!!
kwit_granger: dibales, artinya apa pecho?
panic_at_messenger: pecho
panic_at_messenger: keknya yang vulgar2 deh
panic_at_messenger: bales aja
panic_at_messenger: AND YOU'RE THE STRONG PSYCHO
kwit_granger: gue tanya apaan pecho
panic_at_messenger: trus dibawabnya?
kwit_granger: PECHO=DOG
panic_at_messenger: YOU SEXY KITTY
panic_at_messenger: =))
kwit_granger: trus gue jawab [sensor], i'm spiderman
panic_at_messenger: =))
panic_at_messenger: aduh sayang banget dia mau offPadahal partner gw yang itu yang paling keren, tapi pas saat itu dia belom selesai-selesai juga sih. Jadi kita lanut, dan Asril mendapatkan wanita idamannya.
panic_at_messenger: padahal keren
kwit_granger: iya
kwit_granger: minta ym nya gih
panic_at_messenger: tapi kan kita ga bakal kenal each other
kwit_granger: ya udah DELON
panic_at_messenger: delon?
kwit_granger: Derita Lo oOn
panic_at_messenger: [sensor] LO
kwit_granger: =))
kwit_granger: makanya tanya aja dulu ym nya
panic_at_messenger: ga boleh lah
kwit_granger: wigh ya udah deh Delon
kwit_granger: arghhhDan ternyata orang keren yang jadi partner chat gw itu ga kunjung off. Apa karena waktunya terlalu lambat yah? Ah, tapi makin lama makin keren.
kwit_granger: partner gue brengsek semua
panic_at_messenger: =))
kwit_granger: wow
kwit_granger: gue dapet partner cewek
kwit_granger: psycho
kwit_granger: dia ngajak role chat
panic_at_messenger: gimana2?
panic_at_messenger: WOW
panic_at_messenger: anak IH kali
kwit_granger: kagak
kwit_granger: =))
kwit_granger: role chat nya serem
kwit_granger: ngeres gila
panic_at_messenger: coba
panic_at_messenger: kopas
kwit_granger: bukan role chat sih, bikin cerita
panic_at_messenger: kopas!
kwit_granger: [sensor] [sensor] [sensor] [MULTISENSOR]
kwit_granger: gimana ngopas biar kayak elo sih
panic_at_messenger: =)) lo di email sih
kwit_granger: iya =))
kwit_granger: gila story nya kan
panic_at_messenger: [sensor]Semakin malam :| *aduh capek ngopasnya*
kwit_granger: [sensor] ah
panic_at_messenger: aduh keren amat sih nih orang
kwit_granger: aduh partner gue juga keren lith
kwit_granger: =))
kwit_granger: IDIH [sensor] LITH
kwit_granger: =))
panic_at_messenger: =))=)) masih yang tadi?
kwit_granger: ANJRIT STORY GUE MAKIN HOT AMA YG INI
panic_at_messenger: ih cyber sex -.-
panic_at_messenger: ngeri ah
kwit_granger: ih, kaga ngarang cerita doang
kwit_granger: bukan cyber
panic_at_messenger: iyah sama aja
kwit_granger: ga beda jauh ama IH
kwit_granger: tes
kwit_granger: masih idup lith/
panic_at_messenger: masih
panic_at_messenger: gw mau off
panic_at_messenger: gara2 dia nyebut2 spirit life
kwit_granger: emang kenapa spirit life
panic_at_messenger: [skipped]
panic_at_messenger: YAH KITA BERPISAH
kwit_granger: AH ELO SIH
kwit_granger: =))
panic_at_messenger: udah gw dc
kwit_granger: horor dikit ajeeeeeeeee
panic_at_messenger: ADUH NYESELLLL
panic_at_messenger: besok gw pajang ah di blog
panic_at_messenger: off ya sril
kwit_granger: yow, sayang
kwit_granger: jangan lupakan pajang chat gue di blog lo
kwit_granger: =))
panic_at_messenger: have fun with your new hot friend
panic_at_messenger: heh? yang mana? =))
kwit_granger: jangan lupakan partner2 gua malam ini
panic_at_messenger: yang bagian apa?
panic_at_messenger: OKE =))
kwit_granger: idih si partner gue udah dc juga
kwit_granger: dari byg puerto rico ampe make story together
kwit_granger: =))
panic_at_messenger: tapi gimana nih
panic_at_messenger: BANYAK YANG HARUS DISENSOR
panic_at_messenger: =))=))
panic_at_messenger: takut tiba2 blog gw kena warn
kwit_granger: idih =))
kwit_granger: sensor aja lah
kwit_granger: susah amat
panic_at_messenger: WAKAKAKAKA oke =))=))
kwit_granger: sono tidur
panic_at_messenger: oke deh
panic_at_messenger: bye2 :*
END. HEDON. Dan pas ke kamar gw ga bisa tidur. Akhirnya terlelap jam setengah lima gitu, sementara jam delapan gw harus ke sekolahan. UWAHAHAAHAHA.
Ah. Tapi keren.
End of post. Sudah mendapatkan izin dari pihak yang bersangkutan, dengan pemotongan chat yang dilakukan seapik mungkin.
Labels: daily, networld, omegle
I just want to hear 'Sorry' from you... only...
Saturday, 17 January 2009, 12:18:00
So, this is the person called 'a melancholic'.Hmm... How can I tell it to you?
Akhir-akhir ini gw sering banget 'down mood', walaupun gw gak mau mengakui gw sedang dalam keadaan nyatanya. Yah, gw rada males aja nulis-nulis kata berbau 'bad mood' 'bete', a bit ordinary, you know ;)) Padahal aslinya gw seperti itu :| Dan ternyata gak enak juga jadi orang yang demen melkon-melkon kayak gini. Tiap hari kerjaannya merenung, mikir 'gw ngapain sih di sini?', dan mikir hal-hal tentang perasaan gw yang sekalipun gw tau itu samasekali GAK BERGUNA, karena kesannya gw udah terlalu 'dewasa' untuk mikir yang begituan—dan gw benci ada yang beranggapan seperti itu ke gw, seriously. Racauan pertama, meskipun gw gak mau mengungkit masalah umur gw—yah, you know it—tapi itu BUKAN berarti gw mau sifat gw disamain dengan orang-orang yang berada di atas gw.
Hahaha, and back to the story where I began. Yang jelas minggu ini gw sedang berada dalam masa-masa yang 'panas'. Karena gw baru sadar akan sesuatu yang ngebuat gw seakan-akan tertohok (duh lebay) dengan orang-orang yang berada di sekitar gw.
Why do people against me so much? Why do people hate me so much? Why do people DON'T CARE about me so much?
Dan payahnya gw cuma bisa diam memikirkannya. Abis gw mau gimana? Say 'HELLO, I'M HERE, PEOPLE!' or 'Can you give your little attention to me?'. Hahaha, silly. Contoh kasusnya si Zea:
Friends: *meninggalkan Zea*
Zea: Kenapa sih kalian ninggalin gue terus? Gue ke sini, kalian ke situ. Gue ke situ, kalian ke sini.
Friends: OMG, Zea. Lo mau kita nyamperin lo? Oke, oke.
Zea: Ya bukannya gitu juga sih...
Untuk Zea yang tipe melkonnya sama kayak gw mungkin akan speechless bila temen-temennya ngomong kayak gitu. Masalahnya, untuk tipe melkon seperti kita ini, hm... Kita haus akan kepedulian, tapi samasekali gak mau ngemis untuk mendapatkannya, walaupun keadaannya udah seburuk apapun (kita refers to orang-orang yang tipe melkonnya sama kayak gw, hahaha). Sama halnya seperti pertolongan, jika kita kesusahan, maka kita akan membiarkan orang lain melihat kita dan mencoba untuk menolong kita tanpa samasekali meminta mereka untuk membantu kita. I know... it kinda... maksa. But that just the way we roll *credited: Jonas Brothers*
Talitha: *lirik ke meja makan, ngiler, dan sudah membayangkan betapa nikmatnya makan tumis jagung kesukaan dan ayam goreng*
Talitha: *menghampiri meja makan—planning udah mantep ceritanya, abis makan, energi ngumpul, tidur nyenyak*
Talitha: *pucat* KOK TUMIS JAGUNGNYA ABIS?
Abang: *lagi makan* Ha?
Talitha: *oke, menenangkan diri, masih ada sisa dikit*
Abang: Mau makan ya? Nasinya abis.
Talitha: *dalam hati: WHAT THE FREAK?!*
Ayah: Nih, masih ada sisa nasi dikit. *menghampiri rice cooker, ngorek-ngorek nasi yang udah dikit banget*
Talitha: *dalam hati: WELL, makan nasi dikit dengan tumis jagung SISA—tinggal jamurnya doang* Udah, gak usah! Nasinya tinggal dikit, makannya gak nendang.
Ayah: Yaudah, nih lagi dimasakin nasinya.
Talitha: *dalam hati: harus nunggu hampir satu jam sementara planning abis makan langsung tidur—kapan tidurnya, eh?* Udah, gak usah. Gak usah makan sekalian. *ngabur ke kamar* *mengunci pintu*
Okay, I know, bagian yang satu itu jangan ditiru. Pertama, gw durhaka sama orang tua. Kedua, gw gak mensyukuri nikmat yang ada T_T Yah, bagaimana, gw udah terlanjur down mood. Gw paling kesel kalo rencananya udah dibuat seindah mungkin, eh langsung dirusak oleh satu HAL KECILpun. Makanya gw gak heran kalo sering banget kesel cuma gara-gara hal sepele, salah satunya tadi. Dan sesaat gw berpikir pada saat itu, sekalipun nasi dan tumis jagungnya tiba-tiba muncul dalam keadaan utuh, gwpun bakal ogah makan. Apalagi dengan keadaan ayah gw yang pada saat itu menghampiri kamar gw dan terus berbicara soal nasi—dan menganggap gw sedang ngambek. Oh well, dan apakah yang satu ini OOT? Maklumilah, golongan darah O. Tapi kiranya intinya sama.
A: Eh, lagi ngapain?
B: Ngurus daftar panitia pensi.
A: Hoo... *lirik ke daftar panitia pensi, dan tidak menemukan namanya tercantum* Kok gak ada nama gue sih? *sedih, karena B adalah sahabatnya*
B: Oh iya, maaf. Sekarang gue masukin lo ke panitia deh. Mau gak? *wajah inosen yang maksa*
B: *terdiam* *dalam hati: Iya, gue mau jadi panitia, tapi dengan cara lo ngomong seperti itu, seakan-akan gw yang maksa buat dimasukin ke panitia. Masa karena gue yang minta sih, bukan karena dipilih? Dan kenapa di sana gak ada nama gue ya? Padahal kan si B temen deket gue, B sering bilang gue kreatif serta aktif, dan list panitia itu semuanya temen deket gue. Apa B lupa sama gue? Gue kan selalu ada buat dia...*
Yak, contoh kasus itu gak 'beneran' terjadi sama gw (iyalah, secara gw jadi panitia dipilih murni gitu B-) *ditabok*). Tapi secara gak langsung menyerupai kisah gw, di mana gw menjadi si A (tentu sajalah, hohoho).
Dan keselnya, ketika gw marah (yang sekalipun akan hal sepele, sekali lagi), gw gak bener-bener meluapkan amarah gw. Gw akan diam kalo gw marah, dan bisa jadi kalo gw sedang diam = gw sedang marah. Dan tidak menggunakan emoticon, jika itu berlaku pada networld gw. Gw sendiri gak tau apa yang harus dilakuin bila marah, dan itu yang ngebuat gw sedih. Ngome-ngomel? Bentak-bentak orang? Merangkai kata di buku harian? No, no, it's not meh. Dan semarah-marahnya gw ke orang lain, gw gak akan marah beneran, malah gw berusaha menyamarkan kemarahan gw dengan mengatakan bahwa gw tidak apa-apa --a Asalkan ada yang meminta maaf, gw akan lega walaupun belum tentu sepenuhnya rela *halah* Daripada si itu tuh, manusia absen 35 yang udah tau gw marah, tapi malah masih ngejekin gw -_-; Sayang gw terlalu sabar.... maklum, Saturday-borned =)) Jah, jadi narsis gini gw. Tapi kalo dipikir-pikir, kalo Zea yang mengalami hal seperti ini... hm...
Sudahlah. Yang berlalu biar saja berlalu. Dari racauan melkon yang maksa, down mood, sampe ka marah.Toh dengan adanya post seperti ini gw tetep aja dianggap nothing sama yang lain --a It's okay, yang jelas gw bisa meluapin semua perasaan gw selama ini -_- Tepatnya, minggu ini.
Labels: closed, networld, realworld
Reparo!
Saturday, 10 January 2009, 15:28:00
Saya terinspirasi membuat post yang satu ini setelah chat dengan Rahma di Y!M seperti biasa. Berikut cuplikan singkatnya.Rahma Amakusas: gw masih amat sangat bingung mau ikut tes UGM apa UI
Rahma Amakusas: :|
Black Talitha: UI
Black Talitha: biar di jakarta
Black Talitha: O-)
Rahma Amakusas: YE, EMOTNYA GA JADI =))
Rahma Amakusas: maunya sih UI
Black Talitha: =))
Black Talitha: O:-)
Rahma Amakusas: ]tapi tes masuknya gampangan UGM
Rahma Amakusas: sekarang mah gw ambil aman aja maunya
Rahma Amakusas: secara gw ga pernah belajar =))
Black Talitha: yah :|
Black Talitha: UI dong :|
Black Talitha: ugm jogja kan?
Rahma Amakusas: iya jogja :|
Rahma Amakusas: gw juga pengennya UI
Rahma Amakusas: tapi ya itu...
Rahma Amakusas: tesnya parah =))
Black Talitha: makanya belajar ;))
Black Talitha: O:-)
Rahma Amakusas: ;))
Rahma Amakusas: gw tau
Rahma Amakusas: KAMFRET
Rahma Amakusas: pasti biar loe bisa sering2 ketemu gw kan B-)
Black Talitha: lo tau kamfret?
Rahma Amakusas: gw tau gw keren. lith =))
Black Talitha: heh -.,-
Rahma Amakusas: =))
Black Talitha: gak jadi deh
Black Talitha: *undo*
Rahma Amakusas: itu kamfret seliangan
Rahma Amakusas: *selingan
Rahma Amakusas: =))
Black Talitha: O:-)O:-)O:-)O:-)O:-)O:-)O:-)O:-)O:-)
Rahma Amakusas: SAYANG DUNIA GA BISA DI UNDO =))
Black Talitha: =))=))
Black Talitha: bener juga yah T_T
Rahma Amakusas: UDAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Rahma Amakusas: eh,. itu pernah gw jadiin judul cerpen loh =))
Rahma Amakusas: andai dunia bisa di undo
Rahma Amakusas: ;))
Black Talitha: gw masukin blog ah =))
Black Talitha: *gapenting*
Rahma Amakusas: dodol =))
Rahma Amakusas: apanya yang dimasukin Blog?
Black Talitha: sayang dunia ga bisa diundo...
Rahma Amakusas: chat kita ini?
Rahma Amakusas: oh =))
Out of my hands
Sunday, 23 November 2008, 19:31:00
Apa yang harus ayay lakukan saat ini?1. Ngepost plot Long Hei Mi di IH.
2. Ngepost di pesta as Remus (*lempar bata ke Egi untuk yang ke-2 kalinya hari ini*), post kelulusan yang sangat ayay idam-idamkan.
3. Ngurus board rumah. Banyak yang harus dimasukin ke index. Belum lagi ngurus member-member sinting yang ga baca peraturan...
4. Baca Goosebumps: Piano Hantu setelah tadi mengunjungi surga dunia yang terletak di sebelah Halte Mandala (baca: komik.com).
5. Baca Sejarah, Bab 2. Besok ulangan jam pertama setelah upacara, tapi kepala ayay pusing gara-gara flu.
6. Kerjain PR Sejarah, tinggal latihan 5 soal halaman 47. Untung semalem suntuk dah ngerjain sisanya.
7. Baca Biologi, Bab 6. Besok ulangan abis istirahat dari kelompok 6 (eh, ayay lupa). Untuuuung kelompok 6 ada Pijar dan Bintang, jadi bisa dapet bocoran.
So? Apa yang harus ayay lakukan terlebih dahulu? Ah.... capek.... Kapan ayay bisa menghabiskan weekend ayay dengan tenang sentosa?
*ayay = aku, dalam bahasa 'ce' (alah, gak kok, ngarang--dalam bahasanya Uchenexus sayang..)
Labels: IH, networld, realworld